Jen Updates...

In the last year I have made a lot of changes, good changes, damn good changes. Last night I saw my ex-husband for the first time in months. This Sunday would've been our 7 year wedding anniversary. I tell you what, that 7 year itch is real. Damn real. The meeting went well for the most part, no fighting (what's the point in that now?), it was a little uncomfortable at point, which is likely to be expected. But I walked away feeling so happy, without a single ounce of regret or "what if's" it was surprisingly theraputic. I'm the strong one now, I'm the one that knows what she wants and what she's working towards, I'm the one that's enjoying life and in control, it's an amazing feeling.

I do feel all in control now, I bought a condo, all on my own. I picked it out, along with Tony the super Realtor, and did it all on my own. That was big for me. I love my little house. Just mine and Harveys. I love living alone so much. Sure, having someone split that monthly payment with me would be great, but walking around in my underwear, even on days when I feel fat, is worth it to me.

I've made my own job decisions based solely on what feels right to me. I've trusted my gut and shit's working out. It always does. I'm truly a believer that if you are living right and following your heart, shit just works out. It's almost funny how that happens. Sometimes it appears to be crashing and burning around you, but usually, after the dust has settled, you see a reason. Dang, that's super optimistic of me. I guess I am tragically, an optimist.

I've also found me an excellent man. I fell flat on my face a couple times trying to figure out this dating stuff...but after a couple of hard knocks, I seem to be doing good. John's really so great for me. I'm happy there, and have learned, after some resistance, to let someone treat me good. To let someone worship me a little. I think I'm starting to like it.

So yes, I may be facing unemployment in a few months, and I may have packed on a couple of extra pounds lately, and I may make some stupid decisions still from time to time... But I'm out there doing it. I feel strong, and I feel really exciting for what the future may hold for me.