Zero focus day.

I'm just having one of those days. One of those files keep piling up, emails keep coming in and I sit and eat my apple and drink my tea and listen to my music and day dream about going home and watching The Wire. I've been productive for me...I've applied for 3 other jobs today. I think it's back to retail for my little worker ass. I miss alot about it, I really do. I miss management and being in charge. I miss working on my feet all day, I miss working with people face to face. I miss my days being full of lots of different things. I miss not having a desk, or a cube, or an office chair. I miss these things. I also miss making more money, I miss that alot.

I'm really happy I'm leaving the FC after so many long years. It's time. They've been good, and taken care of me, somewhat, but it's time for something new. It's time for a change. I am excited to see where I can go in a new company. I'm nervous too...the FC is sort of like a low paying, unappreciative security blanket. But secure nonetheless.

Today I applied for a manager of a Select Comfort bed store, a See's Candies store, a admin assistant for a company I've never heard of, and thought about becoming a Draper city police officer. I think I'd look sexy in uniform, but then realized you have to be mean to people, and I'm no good at that.

Something will come along, luckily I'm secure until the end of February here, and always have severance and unemployment to fall back on. I really lucked out with the layoff situation. It could've been so much worse. Ok, I'm off to finish my apple, which is extremely yummy by the way, and get a few things done so I can go pick up my refill on the birth control from Costco before I go home. I love John dearly, but am no where near ready to be his baby Mama.

Peace.